so what's that saying where you lose a friend, but gain another? well how about gaining one friend two weeks ago, and losing two..three? my best friend wants to move to kansas. my best friend is so so sad. my friend is going to boot camp (yea, not too bad but still). It makes me so upset to see everyone unhappy and needing to move.. to change.. to just up and leave. I know it might be for the better--moving away.. going to the marines because theres nothing better to do with life--for having a sad life with stupid boys and no food and not fun. I want to be there for everybody and hug them all and just sleep forever. nobody should be so sad. my friend was almost 4 hours late to work and somebody said i had to push friendships aside and reprimand him. I couldn't, I missed him so much and i felt so bad because he felt so so bad for being late. i know it wasn't his fault. life is too short to be mad about wendys. 

i want to live back at home and spend all my time with everybody i love. i don't want classes full of 50 strangers and teachers who yell about sarah palin and state troopers. i want my family and my friends and my cat we had to give away. i want to give everybody the money they need for the bills and school and whatever else they need it for.

 i know i'm never around, but i want everybody to know that i'd drive to the moon for them. i'll feed you everything you like to eat. i dont care about gas money or inconvenience. 

i just need to go to bed and clear up my brain.