so what's that saying where you lose a friend, but gain another? well how about gaining one friend two weeks ago, and losing two..three? my best friend wants to move to kansas. my best friend is so so sad. my friend is going to boot camp (yea, not too bad but still). It makes me so upset to see everyone unhappy and needing to move.. to change.. to just up and leave. I know it might be for the better--moving away.. going to the marines because theres nothing better to do with life--for having a sad life with stupid boys and no food and not fun. I want to be there for everybody and hug them all and just sleep forever. nobody should be so sad. my friend was almost 4 hours late to work and somebody said i had to push friendships aside and reprimand him. I couldn't, I missed him so much and i felt so bad because he felt so so bad for being late. i know it wasn't his fault. life is too short to be mad about wendys. 

i want to live back at home and spend all my time with everybody i love. i don't want classes full of 50 strangers and teachers who yell about sarah palin and state troopers. i want my family and my friends and my cat we had to give away. i want to give everybody the money they need for the bills and school and whatever else they need it for.

 i know i'm never around, but i want everybody to know that i'd drive to the moon for them. i'll feed you everything you like to eat. i dont care about gas money or inconvenience. 

i just need to go to bed and clear up my brain. 

knock three times on the ceiling

if you want me

This is one of those standard posts, one of the posts that everybody with a blog writes: The End of the Summer Post. (the end of the new year post is another common one) But yes, let me rant about my summer:

I can't remember the early months of the summer. I remember going to DelFest with JoAnn and her mother and having such a great time. I met some amazing people there and wish I could see them again. 

This past month, as well as most of July, has been spent mostly at Wendys, another part with Sean, not so much with anybody from school--not even bethany--and a part with courtney. i've hooped so many hours, smoked so many bowls, went to so many shows in awesome places (grounds for sculpture, long island, etc) and met so many great people there! vision through sound was great in long island, as well at the rhodes. everyone was so nice, and even though me and court and christian were the new people nobody knew (you came all the way from jersey?!!?) we were still treated like family. I can't say that this has been the best summer ever because i can't say that. i don't remember last summer, and i'm sure by this time next year, i won't remember much of this. but right now, i can say i had a fun summer. water slides, all night parties, camping in backyards(and in sheds when bad weather and leaky tents don't go well), six flags with tommy, beach trips with seany, pool days with boof (even though it was only once haha), gristmill with my joAnny and courtney, sewing parties, hooping in front of wendys, falling asleep on blankets at 2am waiting for people to get out of wendys, crew olympics, tromping through central park, cosmic charlie, hitting people with hoops, new tattoos... the list goes on.

school starts very soon. i need to buy books and parking. parking first of all. i'm living with boof, june, and 2 other girls in clove road apts. its going to be exciting i think. i'll be closer to sean, which makes me happy. i'll be schooling all week, working my 40 hrs on the weekend, like last semester. i'm excited for school to start. not especially for homework and tests and such, but just to be back around people, in the area. don't get me wrong, i like it up here, but being closer to sean and amanda.. seeing bethany more than once a month.. it'll be nice. 

everybody needs to listen to knock three times by tony orlando

as well as c moon by paul mcCartney and wings

I've been reading a few different blogs the past couple of days and everybody loves to write about finding out who they are and whatnot. I'm 19. I'm April Jones. I love everything I do, as well as all of my friends. What else does anybody need to know about themselves? Just because maybe you don't fit with a group of people or maybe you don't have a set style of maybe whatever, doesn't mean OOHHH I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM I'M TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT!! Like whatever you want.. don't like what you want too. I don't know. I guess I actually don't know who I am, since I think I do.. and it's never possible to know who you are. Ha. 

every single clock in my house has a different time.

oh oh oh

work soooon

this has been such a great weekend! after two rough weeks, i feel like i deserved it!

saturday me and sean enjoyed a marvelous day at the beach. it was hot and sunny and so nice! we finished the day with seaside boardwalk and pizza and wonderfulness! he's the best :) i really do like him <3

today courtney and I trekked out to the city today to central park for a concert. taj mahal, the skatalites, and some other band played. we traveled across from penn station to the park with 6 hula hoops and high spirits, despite the threatening weather! eventually it cleared up, but it was great. dancing and hooping and making so many friends and sharing hoops and great vibes. 

this past week we camped twice in gio's backyard.. me courtney tommy and gio. tj the shredder joined us second night.

nothing else has happened that's too great. just hooping after work, hanging out on blankets in the wendys grass til 2 am. working. sean-ing sometimes.  watching house hunters right now. i'm sleepy and i need to sleep! 

oh! on spring break i'm going to mexico with sean! yea!!

life is so good!

i closed tonight (booo)

but we got out at an ok time! (yay)

tomorrow i close

friday off 

saturday off

sunday open

friday - seaside with sean all day + fireworks

saturday - 4th of july party at paul's?

sunday - work then up to brad's for fun

hmm. i bought a bike today. i'm going to ride it to work. not on nights that i close , it's scary!

i got into my car after work and i thought my window was shut and said i dont remember shutting it? and went to hit it with my hand to see if it was and what i thought was my window being shut ended up being a spider web covering the WHOLE ENTIRE OPEN WINDOW and i got out of the car and freaked out and ron came over in his car to see what was wrong and i was on the phone with sean and it was just pretty funny.

ok

bed. alright. goodnight!

so i never understood why it was so great to be on the dean's list and such, but then i got a letter from montclair saying 'oh cograts and good job you're on the dean's list' and it was really nice.

nothiiiiinnngggg you won't say nooottthhhhiiiinnnngggg

and that's just fine.

hackettstown is so far so good. the drive isn't toooo bad, but still i'd rather be in franklin. 

wednesday i should be hanging out with alex wolf. i like that kid, he's great.

thursday i am going down the shore with sean :D:D i'm really excited. we went last summer and it was so fun! but no sunburn this year. <3

friday I open at hackettstown. i love waking up at 5 a.m. :]

ok

time to make some chicken salad with onions and apples!

i need to sew with courtney soon!

old classmates please drop all your pens,

don't write a word cause i won't reply

and i'm not bitter, no

it's just i've past that point in my life

--amen

i really like italian ice and modge-podge-ing my ugly desk. oh lawdddy

and i feel fine

where to begin?

Modest Mouse was cut short. It started lightening off in the distance, then the rain came, then more lightening, then heavy rain, then crazy lightening. Satin in a Coffin was in the middle of being played and the line "are you dead or are you sleeping are you dead or are you sleeping" was sung and BAM. giant crash of lightening struck the building right behind us to the left. Mr. Isaac Brock stopped playing, then continued with the next like 'god i sure hope you are dead'. then they stopped and everyone was evacuated to inside. but yea, it was the loudest thing i have ever heard. an hour later, the show went back on and mostly everyone (who didn't leave when the lightening first started before the strike) went back out. REM started, modest mouse didnt come back on. we were all upset. but yea, thats our story. the end.

i drove past two graveyards today, right across the street from each other and one was a jewish one, dark and that's it, but the one across the street was a normal/regular(?) one and it was full of like... glow in the dark or light up things on the gravestones. weird. when i'm dead i'm going to be burned, but if i was buried i wouldn't want a glowstick on my grave hah

sean and i are cooking dinner tonight and making dessert and watching the hey arnold movie because i rented it and its a surprise hahahah 

so i sewed two good bags tonight with courtney at her lovely house! i need to make a myspace page to try to sell them

but anyways, here's a busy week of mine!

Tuesday: work 8-5, hang out with Sean

Wednesday: work 8-5, hang out with Chicken

Thursday: work 8-5, hang out with Brad!

Friday: work 8-5, (going to text Alex Wolf to see if we can reschedule from last week)

Saturday: off--Modest Mouse and R.E.M. with JoAnn, Bethany and Courtney!!!

Sunday: off--fun? or Sean. 

one of those days is actually 9-7 i think, but I'm not sure when.

I really love the song Linoleum by good 'ol NOFX

ok. alex wolf is a definite for friday. Tingas here we come!

I dont really care about seeing or not seeing people this summer (as bad as that sounds) because I always want to, but things fall through and i feel like crap, so i just dont make plans and thats that! but this week is gonna be busy! :D

i must be off to press my work shirt. life is good. 

alright, well do you know what's better than rt. 23 full of cops

better than windows down

better than the smell after the storm

better than blasting dead

GETTING INVITED TO A PARTY BY 3 GUYS IN A JEEP hahah classic. nothing beats flying down the highway, screaming back and forth between cars. IT'LL BE A GREAT TIME :pretends to smoke a joint: JUST FOLLOW US!

of course i didn't go. i'm not that crazy... now if bethany or courtney were with me... that would be another story!

on a side note:

the weather is disgusting. i hate winter and i hate summer. 

the end. 

oh hallo

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