So I guess it's been some time since I wrote last. Not much has changed. I just looked at my last entry and it started pretty much just like this.  

School is going so bad. Statistics is killing me slowly. Oh so slowly. Only a few more weeks until school is over and then SUMMER classes start. Mmmm yea. No fun.

I don't even fell like writing this anymore now.

I need to do stats homework. I have a Spanish oral exam Monday. I have a term paper due Tuesday. More stats homework. These past couple of weeks have been stressing me out so bad (and I usually never stress!)  

Blah Blah Blah Blah

it's been a while since i last posted.. i guess nothing has been happening lately. 

winter break is.. well.. a break. from school at least. I'm still working like a crazy lady. I'm going to the gym. i'm not seeing friends, but surprisingly, it doesn't bother me. I feel myself growing distant from friends and i'm not doing a damn thing about it. the people who i want to see make efforts to see me, and we chill. its good. i don't feel the need to put effort towards a hopeless cause. 

THOUGH 

new years was great. seeing all my old montague friends. it was a blast. i didn't drink, but still it was fun. 

it'll be 3 days in a row that i haven't gone to the gym this week (boo) maybe 4. 

i got my rook pierced and had a bad oil change experience and took a ride from a stranger. 

tomorrow is work, dinner w/ alex wolf, tattoo touchup, and seeing mella :)

i wanted to see her more over break because i figured i'd have a buttload of free time (YEA RIGHT), but obviously it just didn't work out that way.

i got a raise, had a few really good closes, and things like that. work. yea.

i saw BADFISH with courtney, joAnn, and TOMMY and it was A M A Z I N G  fun! I love them tons!

people keep posting stuff on my wall and sending me texts and i just don't feel like writing back. 

i started/am going to finish the thing i started to sew for nicole for maddy. it's stupid and hard and hopefully it'll work out right in the end. if all goes well i'm going to see her/them monday and tuesday, then a sewing party with joAnn and courtney on wednesday.

school starts oh-so-soon and i'm .. nervous? i did fairly well this past semester.. 3 A minuses, 1 B minus, and 2 A's. not too shabby.

this is sort of all over the place. i'm trying to think about what has happened, but i can only think of this week. 

christmas sucked.

i painted the room in the attic that i'll be dorming in. yea.

sean's good.

yea

so what's that saying where you lose a friend, but gain another? well how about gaining one friend two weeks ago, and losing two..three? my best friend wants to move to kansas. my best friend is so so sad. my friend is going to boot camp (yea, not too bad but still). It makes me so upset to see everyone unhappy and needing to move.. to change.. to just up and leave. I know it might be for the better--moving away.. going to the marines because theres nothing better to do with life--for having a sad life with stupid boys and no food and not fun. I want to be there for everybody and hug them all and just sleep forever. nobody should be so sad. my friend was almost 4 hours late to work and somebody said i had to push friendships aside and reprimand him. I couldn't, I missed him so much and i felt so bad because he felt so so bad for being late. i know it wasn't his fault. life is too short to be mad about wendys. 

i want to live back at home and spend all my time with everybody i love. i don't want classes full of 50 strangers and teachers who yell about sarah palin and state troopers. i want my family and my friends and my cat we had to give away. i want to give everybody the money they need for the bills and school and whatever else they need it for.

 i know i'm never around, but i want everybody to know that i'd drive to the moon for them. i'll feed you everything you like to eat. i dont care about gas money or inconvenience. 

i just need to go to bed and clear up my brain. 

knock three times on the ceiling

if you want me

This is one of those standard posts, one of the posts that everybody with a blog writes: The End of the Summer Post. (the end of the new year post is another common one) But yes, let me rant about my summer:

I can't remember the early months of the summer. I remember going to DelFest with JoAnn and her mother and having such a great time. I met some amazing people there and wish I could see them again. 

This past month, as well as most of July, has been spent mostly at Wendys, another part with Sean, not so much with anybody from school--not even bethany--and a part with courtney. i've hooped so many hours, smoked so many bowls, went to so many shows in awesome places (grounds for sculpture, long island, etc) and met so many great people there! vision through sound was great in long island, as well at the rhodes. everyone was so nice, and even though me and court and christian were the new people nobody knew (you came all the way from jersey?!!?) we were still treated like family. I can't say that this has been the best summer ever because i can't say that. i don't remember last summer, and i'm sure by this time next year, i won't remember much of this. but right now, i can say i had a fun summer. water slides, all night parties, camping in backyards(and in sheds when bad weather and leaky tents don't go well), six flags with tommy, beach trips with seany, pool days with boof (even though it was only once haha), gristmill with my joAnny and courtney, sewing parties, hooping in front of wendys, falling asleep on blankets at 2am waiting for people to get out of wendys, crew olympics, tromping through central park, cosmic charlie, hitting people with hoops, new tattoos... the list goes on.

school starts very soon. i need to buy books and parking. parking first of all. i'm living with boof, june, and 2 other girls in clove road apts. its going to be exciting i think. i'll be closer to sean, which makes me happy. i'll be schooling all week, working my 40 hrs on the weekend, like last semester. i'm excited for school to start. not especially for homework and tests and such, but just to be back around people, in the area. don't get me wrong, i like it up here, but being closer to sean and amanda.. seeing bethany more than once a month.. it'll be nice. 

everybody needs to listen to knock three times by tony orlando

as well as c moon by paul mcCartney and wings

I've been reading a few different blogs the past couple of days and everybody loves to write about finding out who they are and whatnot. I'm 19. I'm April Jones. I love everything I do, as well as all of my friends. What else does anybody need to know about themselves? Just because maybe you don't fit with a group of people or maybe you don't have a set style of maybe whatever, doesn't mean OOHHH I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM I'M TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT!! Like whatever you want.. don't like what you want too. I don't know. I guess I actually don't know who I am, since I think I do.. and it's never possible to know who you are. Ha. 

every single clock in my house has a different time.

oh oh oh

work soooon